Silent Watcher

A Soul In Shreds

2006-04-20T16:23:00.000-11:00

A man stands at the doorway and watches quietly as his girlfriend walks out. She should be back soon; he waits on the couch and feels empty. His soul is shredded and he doesn't even realize it. The man looks forward to the sweet reprieve of making love again when she gets home. 'A balm to his spirit' he thinks...

A man walks out the door of the Whorehouse. His soul in taters as he grins up at the sky and then back at the avenue as he slowly meanders away. Not even realizing the damage done, the tears in his very being, and the very basis of who he is...

A woman sits at the table weeping, a bible lies open before her and tears fall upon its open pages. Her heart feels as if it's breaking, but her tears are for joy at the healing touch of her maker. Her soul lights up within her with strength and love. She weeps for sadness as of one who is separated from a lover. But with the joy of someone who has the perfect lover...

Eric And Carrie's Wedding Website

2006-04-20T16:17:00.000-11:00

Eric And Carrie's Wedding Website

Eric and I met when we were 10 or 11… We met at a vacation bible school in our church at the time. We didn’t think to highly of each other for some reason and so we didn’t hit it off to well. Soon afterwards we started to hang out and skate. We found out the fun of getting in trouble and things seemed to take off from there

One very notable memory of my friendship with Eric was the time that we found out about the accidental double Dr. Pepper Discount at Giant Eagle. We drove around to just about every Giant Eagle Grocery Store within an 80 mile radius and bought out all of their Dr. Pepper 2-liters… for 4 cents each. I remember how the 2-liter bottles looked as they lined up around his kitchen walls. I think Eric still has some of them around somewhere…

I remember when Eric and Carrie first began dating. And I remember catching them stealing a first Kiss! You guys sure caught a lot of flak for that one eh? It’s awesome to see where your relationship with each other has come from when we were all so young, and where it’s at today. God’s going to bless you two.

One fact that you may not have known about Eric is that he used to be terrified by thunder storms. A fact that I held mercilessly against him. To his credit however, He now claims that “He loves thunderstorms.”

Random Factoid about myself:
At one time I was unanimously, though falsely, called #1 by our group of friends... Thanks a lot Jerks…

Eric And Carrie's Wedding Website

The Plan!!

2006-04-05T15:52:00.000-11:00

Robin Williams, wearing a shirt that says "I love New York" in Arabic.

Robin Williams' plan...

"I see a lot of people yelling for peace but I have not heard of a plan for peace. So, here's one plan."

1) "The US will apologize to the world for our "interference" in their affairs, past &present. You know, Hitler, Mussolini, Stalin, Tojo, Noriega, Milosevic, Hussein, and the rest of those "good ole boys", we will never "interfere" again.

2) We will withdraw our troops from all over the world, starting with Germany, South Korea, the Middle East, and the Philippines. They don't want us there. We would station troops at our borders. No one allowed sneaking through holes in the fence.

3) All illegal aliens have 90 days to get their affairs together and leave.We'll give them a free trip home. After 90 days the remainder will be gathered up and deported immediately, regardless of whom or where they are. They're illegal!!! France will welcome them.

4) All future visitors will be thoroughly checked and limited to 90 days unless given a special permit!!!! No one from a terrorist nation will be allowed in. If you don't like it there, change it yourself and don't hide here. Asylum would never be available to anyone. We don't need any more cab drivers or 7-11 cashiers.

5) No foreign "students" over age 21. The older ones are the bombers. If they don't attend classes, they get a "D" and it's back home baby.

6) The US will make a strong effort to become self-sufficient energy wise. This will include developing nonpolluting sources of energy but will require a temporary drilling of oil in the Alaskan wilderness. The caribou will have to cope for a while.

7) Offer Saudi Arabia and other oil producing countries $10 a barrel for their oil. If they don't like it, we go someplace else. They can go somewhere else to sell their production. (About a week of the wells filling up the storage sites would be enough.)

8) If there is a famine or other natural catastrophe in the world, we will not "interfere." They can pray to Allah or whomever, for seeds, rain, cement or whatever they need. Besides most of what we give them is stolen or given to the army. The people who need it most get very little, if anything.

9) Ship the UN Headquarters to an isolated island someplace. We don't need the spies and fair weather friends here. Besides, the building would make a good homeless shelter or lockup for illegal aliens.

10) All Americans must go to charm and beauty school. That way, no one can call us "Ugly Americans" any longer. The Language we speak is ENGLISH...learn it...or LEAVE...Now, isn't that a winner of a plan?

"The Statue of Liberty is no longer saying "Give me your tired, your poor, your huddled masses." She's got a baseball bat and she's yelling, 'you want a piece of me?' "

My Space

2006-03-02T02:36:00.000-11:00

Everyone keeps telling me about Myspace.com so I figured I'd throw an account on there www.myspace.com

Bored At Work

2006-03-02T01:50:00.000-11:00

Beach, originally uploaded by lost2society.

Calling... all day long... This little masterpiece is what happens on a day when no one picks up the phone on the other end...

Uncomfortable Before Your Gaze

2006-03-01T02:09:00.000-11:00

I walk

Naked and uncomfortable

Before your gaze

All seeing

I beleive my soul will burn

If I do not change,

And yet I stay

And I fallTo my knees

No longer even able

To stand before your grace

Because of my disgrace

A memory

As I attempt

To glorify you

With my unholy lips

Burn away my flesh

And bring me fresh

Back to you again

20 Question Method?

2006-02-28T17:01:00.000-11:00

Tears of a clown, originally uploaded by john©.

A way to constantly improve yourself according to Brian Tracy in The Psychology Of Selling
Find one thing that needs to be improved each day. Phrase that one thing as a question and then sit down until you think of 20 ways that you could fix that problem or at least improve upon it. And then pick one of those 20 ideas and implement it during that day. The trick will be in forcing yourself to sit there until you think of 20 different things. The first things normally flow easily but it gets harder. You will see a dramatic difference in yourself after only 30 days of doing this. Your processes will improve so drastically that people will begin to take notice of the way you do things and begin to copy you themselves.
It will be difficult to stay consistent… but keep at it!

Fear

2006-02-28T16:56:00.000-11:00

iraq3, originally uploaded by lost2society.

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine as children do. It's not just in some of us; it is in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

-Coach Carter- Timo Cruz-

listen to me now!!

2006-02-28T16:44:00.000-11:00

Communication with Family and Friends

Legacy

2006-02-27T17:27:00.000-11:00

We had a great time at the marriage seminar this weekend. We picked up a lot of cool ideas, nothing ground breaking. But there was a lot of information that kind of pricked us into thinking about habits we’ve made that aren’t necessarily the best. One of the biggest ideas that this weekend encouraged was the idea of leaving a legacy. I think that it’s easy to over-look the importance of leaving a legacy. However it’s one of the noblest things that I can think of to do.
Look at the families that grow in mediocrity, not just spiritually but also emotionally, mentally, and financially. Most of us can especially look at our own families that we grew up in and see some things that we wished we’d grown up with. Does that mean that our families were failures? Absolutely not, but it means that once we can see those mistakes we can improve on them.
There are a couple of things that we’ve looked that that we would like our children to be able to grow up with. Well, actually more than a couple.

Spiritual Heritage
Salvation
Biblical Knowledge/morals/ethics
Doctrinal foundation
Ethics/Character

Finances
The concepts of Building wealth
Inheritance when WE die
College paid for

Socially
Be able to relate well with all ages
Be confident and composed
Stylish in how they look and speak
Able to step outside “the norms”
Never let anyone look down on them
Yet be a servant enough to serve (warrior servant)
Confident in their sexuality (a real man and a real woman)

Mentally/ Emotionally
Able to Handle stress
Able to focus and concentrate
Able to learn quickly
Smart and capable
Organized
Emotionally stable and thoughtful of others

Attitudes
Charismatic and able to lead
Gentle and humble- able to follow
Optimistic but tempered with reality
Brave, Able to work through fears

High expectations right? Is it possible for a parent to set the bar too high? I think that the important thing to remember is that the children follow the parents’ leadership. As A parent we first need to become what we want our children to be… that sets our own bar high and it gives us a personal reason to set our personal expectations higher… to build a legacy…
If we use our own lives, we have maybe… 50 more years to be active if the Lord blesses us? If we leverage our lives and raise great children… they will raise great children as well and so on so forth… it leverages greatness into our family tree and it leaves a legacy that will reach far beyond my own lifetime…

Real Holocaust

2006-02-24T01:59:00.000-11:00

real_holocaust, originally uploaded by lost2society.

I found an interesting political blog earlier... shocking pics...

http://www.acepilots.com/mt/2006/02/03/mohammed-cartoon-update/

Choose Your Response...

2006-02-20T17:33:00.000-11:00

“Between stimulus and response there is a space…

In that space lies your freedom,
And power to choose your response.

In those responses lie your growth and your happiness.”

Chili...

2006-02-20T17:18:00.000-11:00

It all started with the chili cook-off on Friday… it was escalated on my return home when I was sprayed down with a gallon of perfume on account of my chili induced smell… now for the first time in my life I have allergies to something… Perfume… that familiar much talked of tickling sensation in my throat, runny nose, red eyes, headache, and the inability to sleep… all symptoms of my deep seated allergy… *sigh*… or I could be coming down with a cold. It is that time of year after all.

Love is all around...

2006-02-20T17:08:00.000-11:00

I must be the luckiest man alive. I’ve been blessed with the ability to write bad poetry pretty fast. Poetry only a mother could love. Or poetry only my wife could love… no really the reason I’m lucky is that Jessica doesn’t demand Valentines Day perfection. Our conversation the day before consisted of her calling it a day of commercial romance… I love her, though I think we had a bit of role reversal going as I came home from work… I walked in the door and the table was made up for a romantic dinner! Beautiful, though it didn’t hold a light up to how Jess looked. I gave her the flowers I had and a nice “First Valentines Day Together” card and we sat down to have a wonderful evening together. For someone who thinks that it is “just a Commercial Romance Holiday” She really enjoyed the romance of our evening, in fact we both had a wonderful time.

Just had an awesome weekend

2006-01-16T14:56:00.000-11:00

Just had an awesome weekend. It all started on Friday night when my wife decided to throw me an amazing surprise party and invited all of my friends to it. I didn’t suspect a thing. (she’s really good) she had me excited about going out to see a movie and get dinner instead. And who shows up at our door right before we leave??!! EVERYONE! It was great. Presents, food, drinks all around! We all talked, we played some music. And I even got to teach Pegster how to do an I.V. she’s a nursing major, which means that she’ll have more medical education than me, however I got to show off for like five seconds and show her a thing or two;-). You can tell I’m married now though, at 11 we kicked everyone out and spent the rest of the evening with just together. On Saturday we decided to be lazy. She watched movies and I messed around on the internet. Sunday was almost as bad. However we actually went out and got some things done. We went to value city to pick up one of the pieces that was missing from our new kitchen counter, only to realize when w3e got there that we already must have had the piece and that I’d just put it together wrong so that the piece was inside one of the drawers… yeah we felt kind’ve stupid. Or at least I did. Now we have an extra shelf at home:-). Life is great… at AWANA we read through Mathew 6 it’s a great chapter about not doing things in front of other people for the reward of them seeing you. But instead do it before God and he will reward you openly in front of other people. He will reward us and take care of our physical bodies. God is amazing like that. He loves the birds and feeds them he made the flowers and clothes them. How much more does he love us than the birds and how much more does he care for us than the flowers of the field? Cool thought eh?

"So I says 'Morty,' I says..."

2006-01-06T17:04:00.000-11:00

"So I says 'Morty,' I says...", originally uploaded by Spamily.

Alright guys you can now leave comments on my blog, somehow I had the commenting ability flipped off.

Paul

First Christmas

2006-01-04T13:13:00.000-11:00

100_5451, originally uploaded by lost2society.

Christmas Morning
With you
I wake up to you in my arms
You laugh at me
Because I’m blinking in sleep
I can’t wake up
We were up too late last night
You pull me out of bed
And we run to the tree together
Presents
I hope you open mine first
Because you’re so excited
I don’t know
If mine are good enough
Or as good as yours
I’m not very good with Presents
But I’m excited
I love the look on your face
When you look
At the wrapping paper
You make me smile
Because you use some self control
And we make tea first
And fresh bagels
That we bought at Giant Eagle
I can’t wait
Because you make me smile
This is Our first Christmas
I imagine it already
With you

Blue Sky

2006-01-04T10:08:00.000-11:00

dandelion in the bush, originally uploaded by Kombi Kween.

Sunshine
Blue sky
Think of me
Flower I walk by
Roses
They say have thorns that hurt
But I hold you close
And you cling to my shirt
Flower
As I walk by
Sunshine
Beneath the big blue sky

My Slideshow!

2005-12-24T16:46:00.000-11:00

Flash Slideshow

dreams...

2005-12-21T16:32:00.000-11:00

If my gritty eyes in the morning could tell stories of the dreams they shared with me at night. They would perhaps lose their redness and begin to swell with pride. they would be proud to share the stories of our escapades. they would get excited as they ranted about the enemies of our dreams. they would cry at the point of lost love and they would rejoice with me on my waking point. My return to the woman I hold in my arms...
I love you Jessica

Sandy

2005-12-20T19:23:00.000-11:00

My Eyes Grit together as my vision attempts to adjust... sleep begins its slow fall as I slip from my blanket and walk into the trees. it's still dark here but I can see my way by the moon and somehow I find my way to the water... its rushing and tumbling draw me, and soon I am waist deep, thigh deep, and now I'm swimming...
My eyes Grit together as my vision attempts to adjust... sleep Begins its slow fall as I stir beneith my blankets... I turn and see the path I've just walked and shiver as I remember why I shouldn't return there this time. I roll over and try to fall asleep again...

What's your IQ score ?

2005-12-06T05:37:00.000-11:00

Check out your IQ score: http://web.tickle.com/ Click on the "Classic IQ test" and get your score!! I dont want to put a review of it, but boy, it sounds really good!My score:

-->Congratulations, Paul !Your IQ score is 138, I'm a visionary phylosipher. The compared me to Plato...

Here's their interpretation!-

A score between 70 and 84 places you below the population average-
A score between 85 and 99 puts you slightly below the population average, but is in the normal range -
A score of 100 represents the population average-
A score between 101 and 115 puts you above the population average, but is in the normal range-
A score between 116 and 130 means that your IQ might be significantly above the population average -
Scores of 130 and above puts you significantly above the population average

What are you waiting for? I want to hear everyone elses scores! lol! can you compare to my IQ!

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The World Needs a Hero

2005-12-05T11:22:00.000-11:00

Around every corner bad stuff is out there lurking.
Because that's what bad stuff does. It lurks.
Not runs, Not walks, nor strolls. But lurks.

And so the question arises: who will defend goodness?
who will conquer hard-to-open peanut packages?
stand up against washing machines that steal socks, and
vanguish restrooms of the empty deserted rolls of toilet paper?

who will stand up and say "No. No, Pimple,
you will not make the day bad, nor you, Chewing Gum
stuck to the sole of my shoe. You can test my
patience, but you cannot take my smile."

Who will champion snooze buttons, clouds that
look like furry animals, and all-you-can-eat buffets?

Who will step into the ring and become

a Force of Good?

2005-12-01T16:17:00.000-11:00

Watch Out ZOOLANDER!! Cold Steel Here I come!!

2005-12-01T15:48:00.000-11:00

This is the Love of my Life! We have been Married about 7 Months now. April 23, 2005. The Lord has blessed me so much with my Wife.

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my wife and I

2005-11-30T17:41:00.000-11:00

Thats my beautiful Wife and I, I don't know how I ended up with her! God is Great to me!

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POTLUCK!!!

2005-10-31T06:29:00.000-11:00

GLORY, GLORY, GLORY, how can it feel so good to hurt so bad after eating so much great food!!! Today at work we have a potluck. I don’t have to wonder why so many people were snacking this morning. Wow! Talk about great food. I wish I were like the Romans. They would just hit the bathroom, throw-up and be ready for more! Ah well, what can you do. Just one more moment enjoyed in life.

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Battle...

2005-10-30T09:57:00.000-11:00

I can feel the wind brush me along with the sour acrid smell of blood and smoke all around me. The blade barely misses me as I duck and brush it aside with my shield, I thrust my sword and feel the slight give as it pushes through my opponent’s armor and a new scream echoes through the air. I try to stay aware of the action around me but I'm again distracted by how many are still wandering around without their armor, they don't even seem to notice the battle around them... "Get Ready!!" I yell, "The Battle is on us!!!" a couple look around nervously, and then glance at me like I'm crazy. Most of them just ignore me. Fools... The Screams and smoke and blood seem to fill my world. Why am I so cursed to be the one to see this...? I feel as if I must do something, and yet the thought of doing anything at all is so overwhelming that I am scared to even try. I duck again as a blade swings past and watch horrified to see another unsuspecting victim cut down. There’s not even the resistance of armor as the blade passes through his neck... I'm sickened... but what am I to do... Press on...

From the place I make my bread

2005-08-29T10:31:00.000-11:00

I was driving home yesterday. A car flew across the median and my first instinct was to stop immiediately to make sure everyone was ok. miraculously no one was hurt and the car was still drivable. There was only a young man and woman in the car, but they where obviously shaken up. their legs were shaking and they were so thankful that I had stopped.It makes me feel good inside when I'm able to stop and use my knowledge to help people out like that. I ran out in the road to get the tread that had been left there from the tire of a truck. I'must glad they didn't get hurt. I wish I would have invited them to come and meet my wife though. they were a new married couple and I liked them immediately. They invited me out to eat with them and I told them that I couldn't because I was headed out with my wife that night. I passed up the opportunity to make a couple of new friends...That kind of weighs on my mind.

Life of Loans

2005-08-24T10:06:00.000-11:00

I just recently started working as a loan officer in copley, oh. As I call people and talk to them I'm constantly amazed at how many people are so completely ignorant of their financial situation. I look at myself and its not so hard to beleive... I'm in debt myself and its only because of the woman that I married that I've really begun to think about my finances like I do . It's crazy how unreceptive people are to the idea of saving themselves money each month. I'm forced to beleive that its because of the telemarketing techniques that are used so commonly. telemarketing is so incredibly invasive to people. I know how I feel when someone calls me on the phone to sell me something. I don't even give them a chance. I sometimes act like I'm giving them a chance. thats because I'm a person that likes to have a laugh at other peoples expense though;-). No really, there has got to be a better way to show people how I can help them improve their lives...